although my paycheck may take a cut, i got to take time to hang with my kitty, dr. phil and ellen while blogging, so i guess i'll won't complain....
anyway, friends, how was your halloween? anything exciting happen? i got to spend my halloween handing candy out (with the cute guy) to the precious kids of Van Buren Ave followed by a late night workout. this workout (and P!nk's F* Perfect song) made me realize an important question to ask you....
who is your biggest critic, that one person who you strive to impress??? is it friend (or enemy), family member, significant other, co-worker??? are you ready for mine??? it's me, i am my own biggest critic. this may true for you as well, but unfortunately, mine is to a fault.
i've heard plenty of times from my mom, 'you're too hard on yourself', or from a friend, "i don't know how you do it'. the answer is, i do it because i make myself do it. i put everything i have into every element of my life; my job, relationships, working out and schoolwork (this one could be debatable).
you see my workout last night wasn't up to 'my standards', so i left the gym feeling like i shouldn't have even wasted my time instead of relishing in the fact that i had gone to gym at all. laying in bed last night (thinking i was being lazy for going to sleep instead of blogging), i decided it's time to cut myself some slack. right now my life can get too busy for working out everyday and i have to be ok with that. i may have to learn to say the word 'NO' in order to catch up on sleep or take an evening for a bubble bath. some days i may be sick and have to lay around all day (although i still think i should have sucked it up and stayed at work) and it's time to start listening to my body and bask in the successes not the failures. of course there are responsibilities, and you better believe i'll still be setting goals, but it's time to teach myself it's unhealthy to give to everything else and not to myself. my time to live simply is long overdue. so friends, here is my pledge to stop feeling guilty or selfish when i simply can't do it all. any suggestions on accomplishing this? maybe i should start with ordering mocha with the whipped cream and whole milk....
here is a picture to remind myself, that sleep is sooo necessary.....
please realize, this dude leads a hard life, he is a 6 month old kitten after all. i've decided that he is either extremely tired from cuddling with me all day or trying not breath in the germs....
alas, the nyquil is kicking in and i need to chug one more glass of warm honey water with hopes of waking up fully recovered ready to answer life and death questions of senior citizens!
always striving for more,
dee b.
love this post, Dee. i often am my own toughest critic as well. my yoga instructor tonight talked a lot about santosa, or contentment. being ok with who you are, where you are and what you're able to do. it really encouraged me. hope you're feeling better :)
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